janet's first day at work was yesterday. she's working in the bakery at shaw's, i used my mad hookups to get her the job.
so now we're both working about 30 hours a week at 8 dollars an hour, which so far seems like enough to pay all of our bills and then some. maybe we'll be comfortable for awhile. until we, you know, move again. we're going to california once my dad moves out of this apartment, partly because we have no place else to go.

hmm.

palace playland opens full time this weekend.
i know where i'm gonna be.

janet and i bought a car. it's a 2002 honda civic, and it's not perfect, but we got a really good deal on it.

this is my first time having a loan, which is kind of scary. i can't let myself fuck this up.

yep...
having a car and living next to the beach in summertime is pretty much awesome though. it's beautiful outside and we have all the freedom in the world. well, almost.

happy mother's day.

janet and i took my mom out to eat today, which was probably stupid because we're broke. but she seemed happy and she is my mother, so i don't mind at all.

shaw's is going alright but 8 dollars an hour still isn't enough to make a good living, even if it is fairly decent for a guy like me. i got my first paycheck last weekend and until today i was doing a really good job of budgeting it all. getting to auburn and buying breakfast and buying flowers and all that turned into a 50 dollar affair. i wanted to hang out for awhile but my dad needed the car for something, so whatever, we went home and took a six hour nap, yay.

lately pretty much all i've been doing besides work is watching tv shows that janet and i have downloaded. we've finished carnivale and now we're moving onto rome, both are really good shows. it passes the time so whatever.

once janet gets a job, we're probably going to move out of my dad's place. i really don't want to though, because rent is so expensive and it'd be nice to be able to save up some money. we need to buy a new car too, and all of these payments equals no money in the bank. relatedly, i really need to go to college.

in the interest of total honesty, i miss ddr a lot. i really can't wait until summer haha. :o

honestly, that's not all i miss.

i'm here because i feel i've lost my inspiration. writing in kifreak has become harder than ever. there's too much baggage, and when i'm writing in kifreak, i feel like i have to be either really depressed or really childish. neither of those really fit at this point in my life. so, i'm here.

after everything i've done, i'm back in maine. everything is back to normal and everything has changed. i'm living with my dad, but i'm also living with janet. i know i can't stay here, in this apartment with him. i know i have to get out of here because we've all changed in ways that we can't take back.

soon, we plan to move again, to california. we're not going out there without a plan and a job, because if there's anything we've learned from all of this, it's that moving out with a hope for something better is a huge mistake.

we don't have a car right now. we don't really have anything except a home. i am working again at shaw's, and i'm making 8 dollars an hour this time. for now, it'll have to do.

hopefully i can update this more. hopefully i can leave my old livejournal mentality behind. i feel like i should be recording my life somewhere.